Just when I think I have the faith of David facing Goliath, something comes along and knocks me flat off my self-centered pedestal.
Sometimes I read that account in the Bible of David’s unfathomable faith, and I doubt. I wonder, did David really believe what he said to Goliath?
Goliath found himself insulted that this mighty army would send a boy to fight him. No doubt he was expecting a giant warrior, the best of the best of the Hebrew army, but it was a shepherd boy that walked onto the battlefield, not even a man. Goliath believed he was going to make a snack of David,
Come to me, and I will give your flesh to the birds of the sky and the beasts of the field.
(1 Samuel 17:44)
In the Bible, it seems that David is unphased in his confidence in God by this 9-foot tyrant that threatens his people, when he responds,
You come to me with a sword, a spear, and a javelin, but I come to you in the name of the Lord of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have taunted.
This day the Lord will deliver you up into my hands, and I will strike you down and remove your head from you. And I will give the dead bodies of the army of the Philistines this day to the birds of the sky and the wild beasts of the earth, that all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel, and that all this assembly may know that the LORD does not deliver by sword or by spear; for the battle is the LORD’s and He will give you into our hands. (1 Samuel 17:45-47)
I tend to project my own fears onto David as I read this. His speech is more inspirational than that of Mel Gibson in Braveheart, but I still ask, “Really? Was he really not afraid? At all? Because I would be.”
I don’t think David was afraid. Not even a little. Maybe it was his youth and naivety. Or maybe it was just his childlike faith in God. David had been told all the stories of His people and he knew what God had done and what God had promised. Maybe he hadn’t lived long enough to allow doubt to creep in and steal that childlike faith his parents taught.
Nonetheless, David never once wavered in his mission. He didn’t hesitate, in fact, he ran toward his enemy, in full force, knowing, believing, and trusting that God would direct that blow no matter how unsteady his hand. Although, I don’t believe David’s hand had even a moment of faltering in fear or nervousness. David never took a stance of defense, but rather, he ran toward the threat in full attack mode.
I find it hard to believe because I have never truly faced an enemy with that kind of faith and that kind of confidence in God. However, the more giants I face and the more instances I experience God direct the blow to defeat my enemies, the more confident I become in Him.
But I still get scared sometimes.
This week I was fretting, telling my friend all the what ifs in my head.
One of the greatest blessings in life is a Godly friend that will speak truth to you and not validate your ungodly behaviors. She did just that. If you don’t have one, find one.
She spoke life into me. “Stop worrying over the what if it goes wrong, and what if it turns out bad! Ask yourself, What if God paves the way? What if God takes care of all your needs? What if God goes before you and works out all the details?”
You mean like He promises He will do? You want me to ask myself what if God does exactly what He has always done all my life? Fine. I guess I’ll try it.
What an incredibly satisfying point of view. David didn’t even ask “What if God will?” David said, “God will. Period.”
I was able to refocus my mind in that moment to the “What if God” and days later I am reminded of the faith of David. This next week, I will run at my giant telling it what God WILL do instead of worrying about what it could do, if not for God on my side, so that everyone around me will know the Lord, and that He was the one that fought the battle.
Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us. Ephesians 3:20